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 Gish seems to have been a success. The team had a lot of fun! We all got a survey asking if maybe they should run another stay at home event and I was whole heartedly YES. I hope they do another one. I think that this quarantine is going to be a lot longer. 

Speaking of I am in one of a handful of states opening back up. Which is the world's worst idea as we have cases continuously going up, but here we are. May as well get a haircut if my stylist opens back up. 

Played some Minecraft tonight and built a house I actually like. I'm not a pro by any stretch of the imagination when it comes to Minecraft, but I enjoy it. I should learn how to do res stone, but mostly I just like gathering things, building and having animals. I like playing with mods but there aren't many for the newest version and I want to play with BEES, because the bees are adorable. 

Sad things

 On January 25th of this year my Dad died. He had lung cancer. He was diagnosed in November of 2019. Granted he had had COPD for years, but no one expected the cancer to move so quickly. The doctor had said 6 months to a year when he saw him in November. 

It's been hard, but honestly I don't think I've ever really dealt with it. My Dad was one of my best friends. He always supported me and encouraged me, but he also told me when I was wrong. He would help me when I had questions, and listen to me prattle on about Supernatural even though he didn't really know what Supernatural was except that it was a TV show. We used to talk about all sorts of things, music, books, photography, just whatever the weather was. We both love weather. 

It's been hard. I'm finally to the point where the thought doesn't pop into my head that "Oh, I haven't called Dad yet this week." or "I should call Dad and tell him about this."

As soon as this whole mess is over I want to go up and visit my step mom again. Pat and Dad were inseparable for 20 years. She's an amazing woman and they loved each other so much. I enjoy visiting with her. 

I miss my Dad a lot. I think quarantine is just giving me more time to think about it, but maybe that's a good thing since i really need to deal with it.